What Weighs Me Down

Had this vivid dream where I was sure of what would make me happy.

I wanted to release a balloon from the top of the big ferris wheel. To watch the balloon go up and up in the sky .... how spectacular.. and exciting (imagine what worlds it will see and go to!)

Then as I was holding the balloon and on the bus to the ferris wheel. I realised it was an impossible dream (within a dream, this is quite a feat for me. I am very good at irrational rationalisation in my dreams.) First, the ferris wheel has closed compartments, hence I would not be able to let it fly. Secondly, I remembered an article I read that such balloons are threats to the environment (yes, I am an environmentalist in dreamland). So it was deemed impossible in my dream.

Was thinking about this today.

I could go to the top of a tall building.

Just one balloon will not push the world into ecological destruction.

But I am not sure where I can get a helium filled balloon.

And whether I would be able to let go of it when the time comes.